A Memory of Regret

Its kind of funny
when i think back
on the me and u
a year or so back

U came to my house
as beautiful as can be
and I thought how lucky i am 
because this girl loved me

But i didnt deserve that love
for i was confused over a lot of things
I was confused in my feelings for u
because i dint know and still dont know
what the word love means

I wanted u to end it
for in my confusion
i didnt know left from right
let alone if i wanted us to still be a we

So i ignored u
I didnt call u
doing things a man should never do to his girl
till u were left with nothing else to do but come see me

But when i answered that door
and there u stood as the most beautiful thing id ever seen
any thoughts of me not being sure vanished
for that was and is the effect u have on me

I could see u were tired
and wanted to end things with me
But u loved me so much
ur heart just wouldnt let u leave

All i wanted to do was hold u
till any sadness i caused would leave
So the tears that came falling down
as i help u in my arms
would simply exist to be

Then with ur tear stained face u looked at me
looking for the answer of us still being a we
and i gave u what u wanted to hear
even though i was unsure
because i didnt want u to leave

So u excepted my words
and we kissed
With what followed 
becoming a blur

But after u left
and the spell u have over me ended
My heart broke even though i still had u
for in telling u what u wanted to hear
i had betrayed myself 
and u most of all

And even though we have ended
I think of this all the time
to remind myself when in a relationship
dont just tell her what she wants to hear
because what follows leads to regrets