Hurt

It hurts
It hurts alot
but i am not bleeding
i am not scratched
I am not bruised
For what hurts
is my heart

It is a pain hard to describe
For something is gripping my heart
tighter by the sec
my world is turning dark
Is this how a heart breaks
is this what they call a broken heart

For i heard u say my name
but u were speaking to him
Then i realized thats what u used to call me
and now that name belongs to him

But its funny
for my heart was ahead of my brain
because it had already started to hurt
when i heard u say that name

The name that used to belong to me
though i dint like it at first.
But i soon came to love the sound of it
for i could hear ur heart say i love u
before the word was ever spoken between us

So with just a name
my world is not the same
for i know what it means
it means the end of u and me

With the knowing
comes sadness
With the sadness 
comes pain
And with the pain comes something unexpexted
For when i feel my face there are tears
Letting the world know
though u cant see my heart hurt
It is still broken and bleeding
hoping that this pain
it never has to feel uhgin

Like the Ocean

Love is like the ocean
And we are just stones
Carried by the river of like
Into this no mans zone

There is no up and down
Just endless waves crashing around
Unsure u are in this place
For its depths
Can't be understodd by man
So that's why they call it fate

The fate of all stones
To flow into this place
Always wishing to go b to the rivers of like
For there we could navigate

Because here
There is no rym or reason
Just a unexplained feeling
That pulls u into its depths
Sometimes letting u come up for air
Sometimes leaving u out of breath

But like the sea
Its beauty is so much more then what we can see
And though its dangerous at times
The danger is just one aspect of its magnifigence
And though its painful at times
We need pain to tell us we are alive
So to be truly alive
We need love

Pinocchio Maybe

There once was a boy
Maybe not a boy
for he was created 
from wood like a toy

Toy like he might have been
but in his heart human he wanted to be
for he had a soul
and wanted to be real so badly

This toylike boy met a girl
And she was real as can be
This one was special
For she even made is wooden heart skip a beat

U might not think a toy can be in love
But just by being himself
He had already done
what wasnt supposed to be

So this wooden boy
fell in love with a girl
But happly ever after
was not ment to be

He thought she felt the same at first
But something came in between
and before he knew it she was gone
his one chance to be happy

SO now he is left with regrets and a maybe
Maybe if he was a real boy
A second chance
he would have with she

Addiction

Thoughts of u are all i have
from the moment of first sight
to the moment i saw u in my dreams last night

U have intoxicated my mind
for when im with u i have a high
but when ur away i feel unwell

This addict like existence brings me hell
for though i get a taste of heaven every once in a while
that taste is rare

Leaving me with broken days
and sleepless night
For i cant think
and i cant sleep
I fiend for u to be in my sight

My mind begins to hallucinate
i see u every where i turn
be it left or right

I try to fight
for i realize
ive become addicted to ur sight

So i distance myself
i act cold when u say hi
when im in ur presence
i do whats wrong instead of whats right

Its like im someone new
not the same person who u knew
for u have caused Dr. Jeckel to create a Mr.Hyde
to get over the addiction which is you

For Her

Show her

Show her this feeling is real
And not just words u say

Show her ur smile
for when she smiles u smile
because she brightens ur day

Show her this is not a game
for your serious about her
and dont want to play

Tell her

Tell her your feelings
not with just with words
but the lil things u do every day

Tell her she is beautiful
Not just because its true
but because its the word ur heart wishes to say


Tell her what she means
because sometimes feelings arent enough
and thats when words come into play

Call her

Call her
Not just to talk
but to tell her u miss her when shes away

Call her
Not just because u like her around
but because u love to hear what she has to say

Hold her
For if u dont
another might take her away

Hold her
because when shes in ur arms
ur world is safe

Finally Thank her
for though she stole ur heart
she gave u hers in replace

Say what u have to say
do what u have to do
because in ur heart
she is someone who cant be replaced

Perfection

Simply amazing 
is what u are
They say nothing is perfect
but there u are

As if God decided on perfection
for the first time
then destroyed the formula
because every other woman now looks flawed in my eyes

In this world 
there is no other
That makes me feel this complete
as when were together

Some would call that fate
as if a simple word
can describe what we have
The whole human language
could only try and fail
to word what we have

Because its beyond words
beyond explanation
beyond reason
Its just there

A living testament 
that anyone can find perfection
If they take the time
to look at and understand
a woman who is always there

You

A Jewel

A diamond in the rough
couldnt describe she
for she is a queen among diamonds
she is strong indeed

The object of so many guys wants
would be she
but unlike most diamonds
more then money u will need
for though she captivates the eye
she is not just another pretty thing

More like the prettest thing
u will ever see
With a mind to match
even a kings
for outspoken she will be
her own woman
who doesnt need u or me

But if she decides to chose 
you will be
the luckiest man alive
for u will have the queen among jewels
a diamond
for that is she

A Compliment

Radiant in the day
Astonishing at night

I stare
letting my eyes drink ur beauty in
like a flower with sunlight

Rare for me to speak
on your beauty outload
But if u can hear my inner thoughts
u would know 
to me ur beauty is profound

No matter when i see u
or the appearance ur in
ur beauty never fades
it just dims 
Letting us better appreciate
ur beauty that is within

Be it inside or out
Your beauty has no equal
Very special u will appear
to anyone that will see u
And though u here it a lot
beauty of plenty uve got
So this is just a compliment
from me to u
Telling u what i think
every time i see u

Elementry School Love

Taking a moment to get my courage up
for i fear disappointment way to much
so i ask a friend what to do
for i have never felt
the way i feel about u

He tells me a note 
is what i need 
but i chicken out
because it is a first for me
But the what ifs
wont let me be
So i put to paper
what i want u to read

I like u
do u like me to
say yes
so u can be my boo
We can eat lunch
and even hold hands together too
please dont say no
for then there will be no me and u

I pass the note
the way elementry kids do
anxious for u to see the note
and see what u do
But sadly it was not ment to be
for the teacher took the note
and i thought it was the end for me

She read the things i wrote
which were ment for u
the whole class started to laugh
i didnt know what to do
and at that moment
i looked at u

U smiled at me
with ur smile that was missing a tooth
and i knew that it wasnt me just liking u
because that smile said u felt the same too

No Flaws

Beautiful woman
U have no flaws
for the things u dont like about yourself
are the things that made me fall

Fall so far
i cant see the sky
for u have replaced 
the sun, the moon and the stars in my life

U call them flaws
but i call them reasons
For they are the excuses i use
since love has no reason

Like ur cute squint
when u forget to wear contacts
or how u always fall
since u have no balance

They are just the little things 
that make up u
Not flaws
for there is nothing flawed about u

Im not saying ur perfect
for perfection cant be loved
but the things u dislike about urself
are not flaws 
for they are the things i love

A Memory of Regret

Its kind of funny
when i think back
on the me and u
a year or so back

U came to my house
as beautiful as can be
and I thought how lucky i am 
because this girl loved me

But i didnt deserve that love
for i was confused over a lot of things
I was confused in my feelings for u
because i dint know and still dont know
what the word love means

I wanted u to end it
for in my confusion
i didnt know left from right
let alone if i wanted us to still be a we

So i ignored u
I didnt call u
doing things a man should never do to his girl
till u were left with nothing else to do but come see me

But when i answered that door
and there u stood as the most beautiful thing id ever seen
any thoughts of me not being sure vanished
for that was and is the effect u have on me

I could see u were tired
and wanted to end things with me
But u loved me so much
ur heart just wouldnt let u leave

All i wanted to do was hold u
till any sadness i caused would leave
So the tears that came falling down
as i help u in my arms
would simply exist to be

Then with ur tear stained face u looked at me
looking for the answer of us still being a we
and i gave u what u wanted to hear
even though i was unsure
because i didnt want u to leave

So u excepted my words
and we kissed
With what followed 
becoming a blur

But after u left
and the spell u have over me ended
My heart broke even though i still had u
for in telling u what u wanted to hear
i had betrayed myself 
and u most of all

And even though we have ended
I think of this all the time
to remind myself when in a relationship
dont just tell her what she wants to hear
because what follows leads to regrets

---------- I Write -----------

I write not for them
but for us
Those that refuse to reform
into what society calls normal

I write because its hard
Hard for the individual to speak
When the group
Drowns out there voice

I write for my mouth is made hesitant
by societies rules and regulations
But rebellion is in my heart
So though they can can quiet my mouth
My words my still shout

I write for society are the masters
and individuality has been enslaved
so once u read my words
your mind is freed
as if my words are the path
and im a conductor on the underground railway

I write to think
I think therefore i write
So in that in this darkness they call normality
The individual has a light

I write to teach
Not to tell u whats wrong and right
but so u can decide on your own
and not let society decide your life

I write there for i rebel
Rebel in every word
In Every sentence
So That the individual
does not die
But is reborn
in every person who hears this
so they too 
may write

Rain Influenced

Like the winter tree
that wonders will it bloom in spring
I so to wonder
In time where will I be.

I think about who I am
And who I want to be
But on that I pause
For I am still unsure

I guess that's what rainy days are about.
Understanding and thought.
Under standing of ones self 
And thoughts on the future

I also think about the present
And Like the rain that poors down Without thought
Thoughts of u have are the same
For they seem to have no end 

Like rain they poor in
Soon flooding my mind
Until all I can do is grin

For I think about ur smile
Your laugh
And every little thing
That makes up u

I think of ways to make u laugh
So I can see that smile
that women wish they had
And men dream about

If u were to ask me y I wanted u
And I said because ur beautiful
Would u blame me and call me shallow
For though ur beauty caught me
Ur mind saved me
From a superficial existence

*Rain
*Rain
*Rain

No Words

I love u
Cant u hear it
Every time my heartbeats

No words
Just put ur ear to my chest
And let my heart speak

No words
Just look into my eyes
So u can see what I see

No words
Just the image of a goddess
For that's what I see

No words
Just actions
That speak

No words
Except when I wisper it
After u fall asleep

I love u
I love u
I love u...............

Days of Ignorance

Pain is a symptom of some physical hurt or disorder

I had always known the definition
but never did i understand the meaning.

Well at least not till recently.

Not till i was looking at the blood and shards of glass on the ground

But its not the fact that i hit the mirror that brought me pain

I mean yes that hurt but it wasnt pain.

It wasnt me wishing u was here but knowing ud never be back

It wasnt me looking at old pics of us and wondering if id ever smile like that.

Those things are pain

But i guess pain can bring hurt

For i punched the mirror in pain

I mean i look in the mirror and what do i see?

I see me.

the same me i always see. 


But that wasnt me
For my heart is broken.

well since the mirror wasnt doing its job.

I broke it

and what do u know 

Only then did it look right

Funny right?

I mean its funny how ur heart which u never see brings u so much pain.

How when it's in pain, bodily hurts dont mean a thing.


I guess now I can say i know the meaning of pain
Good for me right?
I am no longer one of the ignorant masses

But still the days of ignorance are all i long for.

For those were the days of me and u

Divine

In her eyes i saw starlight
for they were worlds in themselves
Leaving me lost in their brilliance
Leaving me lost in there depths

In her smile i saw sunshine
without a hint of clouds or rain
Just beautiful sunshine
that could make my pain go away

Now this woman must b false 
for she seems too good to be true
And as they say when something is too good
then its probably not good for u

I would like to believe
she is exactly what she seems
No games no gimmicks
just a woman who loves me for me

But maybe thats just a dream
And i am a dreamer
For only in dreams
do woman like this exist

But its funny 
For i have dreamed of beautiful woman of plenty
But none like her
For She is one to make me lose sleep
just for the simple fact
even if i dream 
I cant dream of a woman like her

And maybe there lies my problem
For i have met a woman
who surpasses my expectations
My dreams
And any bar that i had set

SO simply put she is a goddess
and divine intervention is what i will call this

Occasional Rain

Like a occasional rain
i thought of u

Always with a smile 
for there was something about u

Maybe it was the squint u get
when u cant see

Or even the way u smile
with only one dimple

Maybe it was the way u thought
u was a lil above average
When ur truthfully
the most beautiful girl I've ever seen

Im not sure what it was
but u seemed to cast a spell on me
because soon that occasional rain turned into a flood
until water was the only thing i saw

For i was drowning
drowning in thoughts of u
And when i saw u
i couldn't breath

But i dint mind
and made no struggle to come up for air
For it was a state i welcomed naturally
because i had realized what it was

I was In love!!

Why I Chill

I sit here
a man lost in eternity
as i look into her eyes

With flashing thoughts
of goddesses and angels
for thats what she brings to mind

And the crazziest thing about that is
this is not the first time
for since the moment i met her
there was something about her
that was simply divine

Now as are eye contact breaks
and im back from the eternity
which is her eyes
I find myself thinking
i must be the luckiest man alive

For she has her hair tied up
and not a trace of make-up on
but moments like this 
is when she is the most gorgeous

So point blank and simple
She is the reason why i stay at home